you wouldnt even understand if i told you.

I dont know if like all my common since went out the window or some thing, but I really dont see any thing wrong with what I did last night?

I’m sorry I wanna have fun, an I got my happiness back for at least an hour. I got what I have been waiting for, I just wanted a reminder. It’s not like I can make it any worse for my self. I’m obviously never going to get over the subject, its never going to just walk right out of my life so fuck it. seriously, it might soud crazy, but i felt good for once, not thinking about memories but actually reliving it.

maybe it will get worse It cant get any worse